last year i was part of a project with some american photographers called 26 fridays, this year we decided on a new project “twelve portraits” one portrait each month. i was hoping to hit the ground running but with one thing and another i had no one to photograph.
two years ago i bought a remote control for my camera, so i could get in the pictures with my family. i opened the box two days ago.
i learnt that i don’t really like taking self portraits – it felt fake and untrue. i felt silly and i was uncomfortable with my tired-mummy face. this one stood out to me as being the most honest, the one that captured me where i am at the moment and how my life is right now. here i am at the back door (so the neighbours can’t see me) trying to set something up, trying to take a portrait. wishing i felt more comfortable on this side of the lens. and as i have pressed the remote i am called from inside (“mar i’m on page 400!!”). so here i am, in my funny hat being pulled in different directions and never quite getting any of it right. but doing my best to get done all that needs doing. i had hoped to take this portrait somewhere pretty but actually i like that i am there with the washing machine and my broom, this is my true environment. and it is good.
to see the rest of our “twelve portraits” group please start with Philadelphia Portrait Photographer Sara Kelly.